Crack

I was so excited to sing the song. "astonishing" from little women. My favorite song! I've nailed so many other times. I sing it on a daily basis and I never screw up. It's my go to song so I decided tht I would do it for theater 3 auditions. I get done with both my monologues and they went very well. I start to sing the song I hold out the long notes and then.....I CRACK! I NEVER crack on this song. I was sook dissppinted in my self I still am! I have no idea but this is a feeling I've never felt before. I never want to belt ever again, I have doubts in my voice,and I've never been so embarressed. I cry everytime I think about it. I think it's because of the cicumstances of the situation. I was in front of people I care about so I feel judged. My friends tend to gravitate toward talent and this audition will have me laughed at for a while. I've sung the song before so people are saying they know I can do it but I just wan't very warmed up. Even my theater teacher said he knew I could do it I just needed a better warmup. It sucks. It really does. I've cried all day about it. But there's nothig I can do. I can't turn back time....