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I've never felt more of it. The feeling of emptiness and you don't know how to fill it. I haven't gone into this state of mind in a while. I don't know what to do with myself. I hate home. I ear it from my friend consistently that I shouldn't hate home and that things will get better. I have hear that for so long now though that I don't believe them. 5 years of therapy, to screaming,fighting, my sister being diagnosed, the cutting,crying everyday,etc. See now suprisingly I get tired of it (shocker right?). A frien recently told me that I'm really good at gettig grounded like it's my hobby in a sense. Of course iblaughed and found it amusing but it seems like that is the only thing I'm good at period! Grade suck, I'm not neely as talented as my friends are, I'm not very attractive, I don't play sports, I'm not at the level to be considered good t dance people are always better than me, and this list could go on forever. Right now I just need something in my life to make me happy but seeing how things are going so far I doubt that will happen for a very long time. Sorry for the rant but I needed to get it all out.