Today was a very good day :) To ask Kamran to prom I did a scavenger hunt with cookie for him! It wasn't the most well organized be he liked it and i felt special so that's all that matters right?! Found the most beautiful turquoise and lemon yellow strapless prom dress......It was almost $400..... :( Ugh i hate expensive clothing :/ But I will find a dress I do have 2 months :) Mad World is starting officially in my mind. It's good I guess. I don't sing. I might not to be able to dance. I'm given not a lead. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful or anything because I do love my part I'm very attached to it. But I feel like I'm never good enough for anything better like no one will give me the chance. Well next year so many people in the program are leaving, I'll be a upperclassman and I'll have a shot :) 

I looked at the number of people following me on here...none...zero...Now most people would write this in tears and feel as if they were a big blob of not interesting matter, but I like it. I love the fact people can't see this so I can say whatever I feel without judgment. Well if a day comes when someone who I didn't want to share these thoughts with sees this I surprisingly won't care! They have seen m true insight and if it ruins friendships I'm sorry but this is my venting space. Play wiht fire and you might get burned.