Used

 I feel used. I'm not saying I'm this great giving person but do I like to go out of my way to make people happy YES, yes I do things and DON'T ask for anything in return. This past year though I did a WHOLE lot of things for people and not even getting a thank you in return. I get so worked up about making people happy that I get really let down when the appreciation isn't as good as I hoped. I learn so much after these experiences. One is after I do something big for a person( like throw them a party of sorts) and then after I realized they never valued my friendship to begin with. Or maybe I listen to them crying about how awful there life is even when it's not and then when I need help I realize it's a one way friendship. Or maybe keep all your secrets and I tell you one thing and you tell the world. Or maybe even I rely on you to listen and you stay for a while and then your gone. Or maybe I listen to everything you say with no judgments and I need to let my feelings out with no judging and that's all you do loud and clear! I feel used like anything I do will get all the love sucked out of it and no sorry or thank you in the end. All I want is for once to do something nice for someone and having me after have the feeling of gratefulness and thinking it was worth it and not just another feeling of being a washed up used piece of crap.....