Sometimes

You have to remember that when it comes to liking, crushing on, or even loving someone that you can’t be scared to get hurt. You learn from relationships. I think when were younger we tend to forget that relationships are searching for our husband or wife or if anything finding the traits we want in a husband or wife. Without getting our heart a little bruised we won’t figure out what we want in our next relationship to mend. Even when you think you have found someone with all the right traits that you want you have to remember that ANY relationship in life besides the boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife stuff like friendship or the relationship you have with family members can have it’s obstacles or fork’s in the road. But when you work through it and come out stronger that’s when you know that is the kindave relationship that you want to nurish and grow, because in the end those are the relationships that last a life time. But even if it doesn’t work out and you get hurt it will help you in the long run.

You also can’t let a heartbreak consume your life. Once you let something like that take over your state of mind, it becomes a habit. Just let things take its tole and in the end if it’s God’s plan it will all work out<3

Used

 I feel used. I'm not saying I'm this great giving person but do I like to go out of my way to make people happy YES, yes I do things and DON'T ask for anything in return. This past year though I did a WHOLE lot of things for people and not even getting a thank you in return. I get so worked up about making people happy that I get really let down when the appreciation isn't as good as I hoped. I learn so much after these experiences. One is after I do something big for a person( like throw them a party of sorts) and then after I realized they never valued my friendship to begin with. Or maybe I listen to them crying about how awful there life is even when it's not and then when I need help I realize it's a one way friendship. Or maybe keep all your secrets and I tell you one thing and you tell the world. Or maybe even I rely on you to listen and you stay for a while and then your gone. Or maybe I listen to everything you say with no judgments and I need to let my feelings out with no judging and that's all you do loud and clear! I feel used like anything I do will get all the love sucked out of it and no sorry or thank you in the end. All I want is for once to do something nice for someone and having me after have the feeling of gratefulness and thinking it was worth it and not just another feeling of being a washed up used piece of crap.....