Fool me once...

"Fool me once shame on me fool me twice shame on you"

So I thought I'd give you a second chance. You easily hurt my feelings so I was cautious to give in. But just as the saying goes when you assume... You make all these excuses and mistakes and you don't except the responsibility for the outcome in the end.

You can talk the talk but you can't walk the walk

You'll never know how much it hurt me...

There's a difference

There is a difference in a friendship between caring and for caring but getting out deep emotions. Just because you care doesn't mean there isn't going to be problems In a friendship people say things ALL the time they don't mean. Other times thy say things they mean but not in the right manner. In friendships you work through things and come out closer and stronger. If you get through the roughy times that's when you know that it is a true good friendship. If you fight at least one you know that friendship is a keeper.

I'm doing the best I can I'm not perfect. But I put it a lot of time an effort into friendships. But what I've learned is honesty is the beat policy and you need to be open wig your feelings or else it's all a fake friendship. In general keeping your emotions inside isn't healthy and can ruin you in the long run. It hurts when you trying so hard to fix something that doesn't want to be fixed. I'm not a bad person and I'm sticking by myself but if my emotions are just going to be turned against me then fine.

But I deserve to be treated with respect. I deserve some support. I deserve to be treated better. Were not two anymore and friendships get more complicated. But there's nothing complicated about being treated poorly. I wish I could take back things I've Sao but I can't. Words hurt I get it. But words come from people and people set off triggers. My emotional trigger let loose. I underhand the upset with me but I'm not the bad guy. No one is! But I'm done with getting everythig turned on me. Let's learn to grow up and accept responsibility.

Forgotten

Your a day late not exactly a day but pretty much a day late. I know you probably think it's not a huge deal. It's not I guess. But I think it is. Which probably sounds really lame and you probably think I'm over exaggerating this whole situation. I guess I am but I'm sorry that i care. I'm sorry that i put time into things. I'm sorry that I actually cared about this. You mean a lot to me. I guess. This whole thought is a guess. A hunch. A thought. Now let's juts say hypothetically something came up. You could have called. A text. A message. An I'm. A wall post. Something to let me know that you were sorry or that you remembered. Because I feel forgotten. But this isn't the first time I would feel forgotten by you.

Forgotten

Hmm well here's urban dictionary's definition: "Alone; the feeling that no one cares and left you behind."

This past year I guess this is one of the words you can sum it up in. I never feel included. I always feel forgotten. I try so hard to be noticed. I do so much for people juts to feel accepted.. And in the end I'm just hurting myself because they end up not appreciating what I've done. I know that when I do things for specific people that nothing will come of it. But do I learn....NO. Of course not!  So instead I am overwhelmed.

And forgotten...

thank you

Thank you for the laughs. Thank you for the encouragement. Thank you for all the kind words.
You are a new found friend. You are a new experience. You are a new adventure.
I can't wait for the new memories. I can't wait for the hard times we will get through together. I can't wait for the songs and performances we will share.
I believe you have great things coming for you. I believe this is the start to an amazing friendship. I believe we are going to be in each others lives for a very long time.
I know we are in each others lives for a reason. I know I can trust you. I know you are one of the mos talented people I've ever met.

This is only the beginning thank you for being there when no one else has and all the things you have done for me in the short time we have had together. This summer is only the beginning <3