This is the year of not being good enough. Throughout the year I've just never have lived up to people's expectations. For my family I'm not the perfect child. I'm not like my best friend Tyler who I'm always compared to. For my friends I feel like I'm in a competition people who are the most talented seem to circle around each other and I always feel like the annoying untalented pest that needs to just shut up. Grades are bad this year! I am convinced I am not going to get into college. I'm always tired all the time. If I'm not doing homework I'm fighting with my parents. If I'm not fighting with my parents I'm crying. But all of them seem to happen at once lately. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm done with life in general.
This week someone at my school past away so I feel selfish for saying all these negative things but I need to get it out somewhere. I am lucky to have what I have though no doubt. But I rather have nothing and be closer to my family and have the strength to work harder. This year juts hasn't been the best one of my life.